Sometimes, song lyrics just get me thinking:
This is the chorus to This is Your Life by Switchfoot
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life. Is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger, and you had everything to lose?
Am I who I want to be? No. I’m in a state of satisified discontent, and the person I want to be looks a lot more Christlike than I am. And as far as dreams go for life… my life is almost nothing like I dreamed it would be when I was younger. Where I am now, and who I am now, are not things I would have imagined even just a few years ago. Life rarely turns out the way I’d expect it to. And sometimes, when dreams and hopes die hard deaths, that’s a painful thing. But in the end, the truth is that God seems to do some of his most amazing building out of chaos. Is my life everything I dreamed that it would be? No… but I never would have dreamed what it is, and I’d sure hate to have missed this just because I couldn’t dream it. And I wonder if it’s really when we were younger that we had everything to lose…
I’m totally with you on this one – my life is definitely NOT what I ever thought it would turn out to be. I’ve had a lot of set backs and detours, but looking back, I can see that God really had a hand in everything, even if I had a hard time seeing it when the bad stuff was happening. I’m living someplace I never expected to live, and doing a job that I never thought I’d do (and part of what I’m doing is something I absolutely despised in college), but in spite of not being where I thought I’d be, I’m in a really great place, doing something that I really enjoy. It wasn’t an easy road to get here, and I’m still not certain how long I’m going to stay. But I do feel that I’m where God wants me to be, doing what He wants me to do.